The Contingency Plan

it's 3pm and i'm still in my pajamas. i slept until 1pm, had a slice of left over pizza, some ice cream and then watched episodes of futurama on dvd.

i feel pretty guilty but think my days of doing this are limited. 

i still find myself in shock about being pregnant. i went shopping for the first time since finding out on thursday and was alarmed at how much i've popped. no one could tell i was pregnant two weeks ago and now its visually undeniable. my pants no longer fit and due to back and stomach aches, i was actually waddling yesterday. it's such a dramatic change.

i'm also adjusting to how emotionally sensitive i am. i've never been a hard hearted person, but it's so easy now for me to cry now. i cried last night when overwhelmed with love for lucas, i weeped when a friend told me of the grief her and her girlfriend experience as they try to have a baby, and am ashamed to report i cried during a freekin commercial. i would've been mortified if i weren't so damn upset. 

i just hope this doesn't continue after the birth as then i'll really be screwed. being a weepy, oversensitive chick is one of the last things i want to become! 

oh well, back to ice cream and futurama for now...