The Contingency Plan

It's a sunny winter's day. I'm lying on the couch and it's quite toasty in the sun. The heat is warming my drugged infused core.

I've tried writing this post a number of times over the past few days but my chemical cocktail and the pain of sitting for too long prevents me from finishing. Ah well...

After surgery and five days in hospital I've returned to a different life. No longer mobile and often drugged out, I spend the majority of my time sleeping and "recovering", which means lying down, eating, watching tv and doing not much else. I'm on six different kinds of tablets.

We've totally weaned Hugo off breast milk now (I was still feeding at night and occassionally for his daytime nap) and I'm relieved it's before my final (final) deadline of two years. I can't feed him the milk I have because of all the drugs, which helps me stay strong and not give into his cries. He's coping really well.... Ok, he's still asking for it but no longer gets as upset. It's been a week and I think we've made good progress.

Mum's here almost everyday cooking, cleaning and spending time with her 'shing gang', Hugo. That means 'heart' and 'liver' or something like that - basically her vital organs necessary for life. She's happy, the happiest I've seen her in quite some time. I think it's because we need her. I certainly do, not just to express my breast milk when I'm smacked out, but to keep everything running smoothly. She loves it, thank God! I've had some enjoyable, indepth conversations with both Mum and Dad since coming home.

So my surgery went well. I had two surgeons, including the inital specialist I visited. I can't speak highly enough of him. He visited me every day in hospital and said things went as well as they could've hoped. All my parts are back in place again, yay! I'm so relieved, even though I have more stitches now than when I first gave birth.

I'm not sure how to finish off this post. It's still hard to concentrate.

Thank you Junebee, Kyra, SquirrleyMojo and Bente for such lovely and encouraging notes.

I think it's nap time again... xx

I'm so glad the surgery went well! Sounds like it brought about some other good things with the weaning (seeing as it's what you wanted, that is :) and your Mum being so helpful and loving! I hope you have a speedy recovery and take full advantage of this rest(?) time.

Glad to hear you're recovering and the surgery went well, and that you have your mother to help out.

I was thinking of you and wondering how you were!

xoxo you too!